In ones eyes it is grey, cloudy, dark, even smoky; like the fog coming off of an eerie swamp in the deep everglades where nothing, no one is safe. The human mind is filled with confusion, what if’s, and maybes. The heart is missing, lifeless, and completely drained. The pain that’s followed by the last drop of energy is indescribable. Questions with unanswered responses are what has taken over and become crucial. Being controlled with such a power that one doesn’t even notice the control they hold.
Thoughts surface of how does one wake up and stand so strongly and grounded against everything they once felt, believed, even trusted. Convincing us of fixing all the problems they’ve created in our own head. Leaving behind everything that once was their dreams without a minute to spare.
Something so simple has turned so complex. How does this even happen? Our quest of independence and fulfillment has destroyed what our heart was once so certain about. You’ve taken the hand of seeking the possibility of something you feel more entitled to have, something greener on the other side.
If this was what was meant to be, wouldn’t that bit of emptiness of been there from the start, from the beginning? Or was it just a slight tasting of the forbidden fruit that is so tempting to us all? Allowing you to see what we have always wanted. Letting you to touch and lock hands with, fill you up with such a feeling you’ve only dreamed of being able to experience. To hand over your heart, to find yourself receiving one in return. Then allowing fear, uncertainty, and the fear of the unknown future take it all away.
Your still thirsty in search of that special water to get through the day. You’ve become like a forest without trees, an empty sky with no stars to light the black sky. A life, still without a care in the world. Your fear is still there as well as your uncertainty, being afraid of not knowing the future still surrounds us all, and that is fear.
Living without knowing is what life is about. No one wants to live in a world where everything is about approval, expectations, or judgment. Who is rightfully fit to be the judge, besides the Lord himself? It is hard to grasp but having unrealistic expectations entering into the unknown world is creating a life of disappointment. When it comes down to the end, we are such small fragments in this giant abyss. It was your choice who’s hand you wanted to hold, but you wont get far if you don’t let go of your own allowing it to be free to extend.
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