Sunday, March 20, 2011

Its a natural feeling: Blog #3 for assignment



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During our years on this Earth we come across bits and pieces of information that we automatically save into our memory or we completely ignore. But what is the issue that keeps appearing from the day we are born, to that long ride in a Hurst, and even when we are gone forever and only our memory is left for others to take control of? What I am talking about is the one of the strongest words in the world, Love. When I was thinking of this topic I had to think back to a past philosophy class when I was learning about Plato.  Out of all the information on this man, I remember one quote that is especially interesting. Plato sees love as this:
             “… a divine madness, a natural, if not wholly desirable emotional imbalance”
           
Interesting isn’t it?  That phrase struck me as completely odd, yet incredibly truthful.  Who can say that they have loved and not seemed crazy? We are crazy just then to say that we have not.  Love is an emotional imbalance.  It is natural to feel love, but to express it will make you crazy. To love and be loved in return truly is the divine madness I believe Plato was talking about.
            The only true natural part involving it is simply the need to feel it. Without love we consciously feel abandoned or not wanted. Mother Teresa once said ”Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible.” Love is something we as humans cannot live without, period.  As conventional as it may sound, those who are not afraid to love are not afraid to fail. And I believe failing time after time will ultimately raise one to greatness. Loving something or someone may be the greatest feeling in the world, it as if “ all the stars are aligned”, but this same infatuation may end up just setting us all up for great sorrow. Like all great things, they must all come to an end.
            It is crazy to me how a simple word can open up so many new ideas. What is so great about love? I believe it is because being loved, and truly loving something brings out the true joy in everyone. I guess if you love, then you are happy.  Whether that love does not last, it makes you happy, if only for a short time….
            If you must let it go then just be thankful you were able to at least feel that temporary “divine madness and emotional imbalance...” Be thankful for that. It is nothing short of complicated.
            If you do not love, then you do not live.
            If you do not live, then you do not exist.
            If you do not exist, well then you cannot be loved.
Complicated yet simple.  Try loving something new, just once, even for a day, and see if that does not change your perspective. It will imbalance your life, yet make it so much more desirable.

Living in a World of Uncertainties- Blog post #2 for Assignment

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          In ones eyes it is grey, cloudy, dark, even smoky; like the fog coming off of an eerie swamp in the deep everglades where nothing, no one is safe. The human mind is filled with confusion, what if’s, and maybes. The heart is missing, lifeless, and completely drained. The pain that’s followed by the last drop of energy is indescribable. Questions with unanswered responses are what has taken over and become crucial. Being controlled with such a power that one doesn’t even notice the control they hold.
            Thoughts surface of how does one wake up and stand so strongly and grounded against everything they once felt, believed, even trusted. Convincing us of fixing all the problems they’ve created in our own head. Leaving behind everything that once was their dreams without a minute to spare.
            Something so simple has turned so complex. How does this even happen? Our quest of independence and fulfillment has destroyed what our heart was once so certain about. You’ve taken the hand of seeking the possibility of something you feel more entitled to have, something greener on the other side.
            If this was what was meant to be, wouldn’t that bit of emptiness of been there from the start, from the beginning? Or was it just a slight tasting of the forbidden fruit that is so tempting to us all? Allowing you to see what we have always wanted. Letting you to touch and lock hands with, fill you up with such a feeling you’ve only dreamed of being able to experience. To hand over your heart, to find yourself receiving one in return. Then allowing fear, uncertainty, and the fear of the unknown future take it all away.
            Your still thirsty in search of that special water to get through the day. You’ve become like a forest without trees, an empty sky with no stars to light the black sky. A life, still without a care in the world. Your fear is still there as well as your uncertainty, being afraid of not knowing the future still surrounds us all, and that is fear.
            Living without knowing is what life is about. No one wants to live in a world where everything is about approval, expectations, or judgment. Who is rightfully fit to be the judge, besides the Lord himself? It is hard to grasp but having unrealistic expectations entering into the unknown world is creating a life of disappointment. When it comes down to the end, we are such small fragments in this giant abyss. It was your choice who’s hand you wanted to hold, but you wont get far if you don’t let go of your own allowing it to be free to extend. 

What is Our Deepest Fear- Blog entry number 1 for Assignment



            I am not sure what I am expecting out of this venting of frustrations, but I suppose I will only hope for the best.  There are a lot of things currently pressing on my mind. A LOT.  More than I ever thought I would be able to handle.  What is the easiest way to elevate stress? Talk about it, well in this case, blog about it.
            I am not the best at voicing how I truly feel about something. Not at all. I am the type of person that seems calm, cool, and collective on the outside, but on the inside my mind seems to be going at the rate of an Olympic finals race for the 100-meter dash, except everyday rather than every four years. Nobody wants to hear about someone else’s struggles, concerns, or feelings and rightfully so, why should they? It is just easier to keep it to yourself, you know? It makes things less complicated.  I can say that my biggest downfall is that nine times out of ten I will not voice an opinion.  Shocking, I know.  I generally am a pretty blunt person, but sometimes, just sometimes I will hold it in. 
            This is my problem. I care absolutely TOO much.  I give people way too much credit where less is deserved if any at all. I don’t know if I trust people too much or if it is that I try to respect everyone. But, unfortunately we have to find out the hard way that people in today’s society have no morals, no respect, and no respect for others property. It is beginning to look like Charles Darwin's idea of "survival of the fittest". I take their weaknesses and make them into my flaws.  In some screwed up way that is what happens. Why should I get worked up over these evil people? I need to start holding people accountable for what they do.  After all, I have been held up to that standard this entire time, correct?  I am genuinely a kind hearted individual.  Most times though, my rough outside and my quite persona does not quite highlight the good characteristics of mine.  Only a few people actually know and understand me. And, ironically those are the people I will remember for the rest of my life.
            A person’s past does not define them right? False, a person’s past completely makes them into the person they are today.  I know that I am smarter, wiser, and more caring then I was in the past.  Granted there will always be one aspect of my past that I will not ever get over.  Just one.  No one can understand it.  Few people know of it.  It is something that will haunt me until I die.  It was not my fault.  I know that.  Yet it lingers…Past DOES define a person.  Past does control you at times, but ultimately it is your responsibility to take it and run with it.  Take the past and run off a cliff with it or take it to a secret place tucked deep away for only you.  Whichever you prefer, but do not expect people to feel sorry for you.
            What is my biggest downfall and weakness of all time?  Do you really want to know?  It is fear.  Fear sometimes controls me.  Let me correct that, fear ALWAYS controls me. It has ruined relationships for me.  It has decided daily routines.  It is ultimately the one thing I struggle with the most.  I cannot understand it. I will never understand it. There is no one person, or a group of people that I fear.  What I fear is different, like a popular movie quote “My deepest fear is not that we are inadequate but that we are powerful beyond measure”(Coach Carter). We are all capable of doing more than we can even comprehend, but our mind is a weapon and will shoot to save us, but will also shoot to kill us. That is scary. When I am faced with rational decisions, my first reaction is ultimate terror.  Fear takes over me and I have to do everything in my power to fight it back, but I will always fight back, always.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

From Hero to Zero: In the eyes of the rambunctious sports fan


         Sports fans around the world can be the most loving, enthusiastic, and just plain fun people to be around, if you and a certain person or people share the same deep compassion for a specific team.  But, they can also be some of the most idiotic, obnoxious, egotistical people to be by. I guess it all depends on how their team is doing, and how much alcohol the fan has ingested in the last 24 hours. But what happens if the star player happens to use performance-enhancing drugs, or commits adultery more than once, or just packs up his/her bags and leaves the city? How do those same fans react? 
         With the great honor of being from the beautiful state of Ohio, I have personally had my fair share of watching professional athletes rise to success while gaining thousands of fans a day; I have also been able to see how a city, or state can completely turn against arguably one of the best basketball players to ever play the game. While sitting around conversing with friends it is inevitable to have a conversation related to sports without hearing some type of crude vulgar directed towards Lebron James, from the same people who once adored everything Lebron stood for. Many people from Ohio feel that Lebron turned his back on his home state. But, why?  It was simply coincidence that Lebron was drafted to play for the Cleveland Cavaliers, and during his time with Cleveland he was a multiple time league MVP, and took a below average team to the NBA play-offs and championship, but fell short every year of winning a ring. After falling short of the championship nearly seven years in a row Lebron decided to move from Cleveland, Ohio to Miami, Florida and to play the game with Olympic teammates Dwayne Wade and Chris Bosh, rather than his old sub par players Mo Williams and Delonte West. Who would not want to make that move? But nothing matters to the basketball fans of Cleveland. They will always feel like their city was not good enough for King James, when in fact they just simply were not. Lebron James, like any other athlete wants to be the best player on the best team in the country, there is no way he could have had both in Cleveland. So while Lebron James “haters” around the world will never give him the respect they once did, they will have to watch Cleveland be the laughing stalk of professional basketball, while Lebron James and the Miami Heat compete for a NBA Championship. 

Sunday, January 23, 2011

The type of people that gain respect

As we go through our daily routines, we encounter hundreds of people that gain our attention in some way or another, whether it is in a positive or negative way. Maybe it is walking to class, shopping at the grocery, or just at our place of business. But, out of all the people that we see each day who are the faces that stick with us? Who are the names that we remember, and why do we remember these people? I believe the main reason that we remember these certain people is because there is a great deal of respect that these certain people have earned. Which brings me to my main point. Who are the type of people that gain our respect the most?
It is horrible to admit but this is a country where a persons physical appearance means so much to there level of success. If we look at the successful everyday person of America many of them all have various commonalities. Most of them are confident, professionally attired, physically fit, and attractive. To answer my first question, who are the faces that stick with is, I believe that it is without a doubt the people that look most professional. In a world that has so many negative aspects, when we see a person that is confident, and looks professional, that person will automatically stick with us, because after all most Americans envy success.
There are so many ways that a person may gain respect. One may have a college degree from a fancy university, maybe some will have a athletic record that will never be broken, or maybe they are a Science teacher, or a high school coach. Although many of these people will have the same traits as the person that we will remember(earlier paragraphs), what is different about the people that we respect is that these people give other people respect as well. As I think back to the people that made a lasting impression on my life I cannot help but to think of my High school History teacher. This teacher won the prestigious  favorite teacher award roughly 15 years in a row. This teacher made a very boring history class into a class that no one would want to miss. As students we respected this man for his great knowledge, wonderful stories, funny sense of humor, and his love for teaching. But what we loved the most is that he gave us his ut most respect.
I strongly believe that in this world the more respect that you have for your peers, yourself, and just people in general,  it will enhance your ability to be a better, more successful person.